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Losing Focus

April 26, 2016

Two more weeks in the semester. It is officially crunch time and I have no idea how I am going to get through everything when I feel like a scatter brain. It is so hard when my brain is everywhere.

Between school, boys, friends, summer plans and next year I have no idea how to compartmentalize what to do first. Or better yet, what do I focus on and how do I focus.

I have started walking on a regular basis to try and get out of my own head. While, I wander around campus and listen to EDM music I find peace. Which is extremely weird because EDM is one of the least peaceful types of music. Yet, when I can lay in the grass and look at the incredible campus God has blessed me with, I see him working and the music and nature connects.

I find focus on nature and on God. How do I connect that to school? (Great question) I am trying to figure that part out. It is so hard to have focus with everything going on and so I keep pushing.

While my semester winds down and I don't know where to begin in the massive to do lists but I will get there. You can too. It might take a break and some time away from people and separation of just you and the world but sometimes that peace and clarity helps.

Do you need to walk?

xoxo,
Em

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