April 29, 2016
Today I had counseling for the last time this semester and honestly maybe ever. Which is crazy to think about because I have been going for the past two years but yet today I found something life changing.
For the past year, I have been learning about reframing my mindset and the power of overcoming depression through my perspective. Today, I found that my depression doesn't control me and how I think or my life choices.
For the first time in my life, I feel clear and like I am strong, independent and don't need depression, self-harm or suicide as an answer. (Whoa!) I am not controlled by it or Satan. No more footholds for him to drag me into the black abyss of depression.
Who I am now is a completely different person then who I was when I started the year in August. It has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs with my depression and I had a fall. Hard. However, when everything was gone and had nothing I found God. When there was nothing left I had God to carry me. When I was in pieces, God was shining though me the most. He was the one putting my pieces back together. I am stronger because of it.
I realized that the spaces of my broken pieces; I had lost in friends. As God was growing and shaping me, I didn't need other people to fill in the gaps because God already had. God showed me this peace beyond human understanding by leaning on Him. He is constant and loves unconditionally. Always remember that.
It's not easy to overcome depression, self-harm, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It has taken me eight and a half years to get to where I am. It isn't an overnight process or an easy one. It is a road of twists, turns and what feels like dead ends but there is a finish line.
Hear from me this: it will get better. It might take days, weeks, months or even years but you can overcome your trials. God is good and is by your side though it. Lean on Him when you think you have nothing left because he will sustain you.
For those of you who are struggling like I have, I understand and am praying for you through this. If I can overcome my depression you can too. The power of seeing the good through the bad is what makes it easier. It takes time to learn but the more you do it the easier it becomes. You don't need the knives, razors, or scissors to be enough or beautiful. They won't erase the pain. God can. God made everyone fearfully and wonderfully in HIS image. Put down the objects because you don't need them. They DON'T control you.
Perspective is powerful. How you look at the world and yourself is important. It can kill you or save you. You are loved and it will get better someday. Just keep going and don't give up. Fight for yourself; if not for any other reason then because you are worth it.
I found the power in my perspective on life. Have you?
xoxo,
Em
Today I had counseling for the last time this semester and honestly maybe ever. Which is crazy to think about because I have been going for the past two years but yet today I found something life changing.
For the past year, I have been learning about reframing my mindset and the power of overcoming depression through my perspective. Today, I found that my depression doesn't control me and how I think or my life choices.
For the first time in my life, I feel clear and like I am strong, independent and don't need depression, self-harm or suicide as an answer. (Whoa!) I am not controlled by it or Satan. No more footholds for him to drag me into the black abyss of depression.
Who I am now is a completely different person then who I was when I started the year in August. It has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs with my depression and I had a fall. Hard. However, when everything was gone and had nothing I found God. When there was nothing left I had God to carry me. When I was in pieces, God was shining though me the most. He was the one putting my pieces back together. I am stronger because of it.
I realized that the spaces of my broken pieces; I had lost in friends. As God was growing and shaping me, I didn't need other people to fill in the gaps because God already had. God showed me this peace beyond human understanding by leaning on Him. He is constant and loves unconditionally. Always remember that.
It's not easy to overcome depression, self-harm, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It has taken me eight and a half years to get to where I am. It isn't an overnight process or an easy one. It is a road of twists, turns and what feels like dead ends but there is a finish line.
Hear from me this: it will get better. It might take days, weeks, months or even years but you can overcome your trials. God is good and is by your side though it. Lean on Him when you think you have nothing left because he will sustain you.
For those of you who are struggling like I have, I understand and am praying for you through this. If I can overcome my depression you can too. The power of seeing the good through the bad is what makes it easier. It takes time to learn but the more you do it the easier it becomes. You don't need the knives, razors, or scissors to be enough or beautiful. They won't erase the pain. God can. God made everyone fearfully and wonderfully in HIS image. Put down the objects because you don't need them. They DON'T control you.
Perspective is powerful. How you look at the world and yourself is important. It can kill you or save you. You are loved and it will get better someday. Just keep going and don't give up. Fight for yourself; if not for any other reason then because you are worth it.
I found the power in my perspective on life. Have you?
xoxo,
Em
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