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Self-Care. What's That?

March 21, 2016

Today I had counseling for the first time since having my meltdown and I realized that I have to take care of myself. (This is foreign to me).

Normally, when I have a meltdown I move on and forget that it happened or just act like it's not a big deal. (Not a good approach). This time it's different because I can't shake the feeling of being not okay. That is what changes everything.

Today, my counselor had me make a list of things I like to do for myself. Which, I never really thought about what I like to do for myself. I always did was was best to help everyone around me. But what about me? (It seems so selfish to actually think of myself. Is it?)

Real talk though. I miss reading my Bible regularly, feeling happy, supporting those around me, and feeling like things are good in my life. I don't know how to get back there but I think I found a start.

I'm not okay but I will be. Today I found that I have to take care of myself even if I don't know how. It all starts with telling myself "I love you, you did the best you could today, and even if you didn't accomplish all you had planned, I love you anyways."

It all comes down to self-care. I haven't taken care of myself but I'm starting to. Are you doing self-care?

xoxo,
Em


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