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Finding Contentment

March 10, 2016

I have spend most of my life stressing about what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, next year, and even in the next five or ten years. I realized that it makes everything hazy and confusing.

Today was one of those days where I was overanalyzing everything in my life but didn't know what to do with it all. However, I sat down and somehow this overwhelming peace fell over me.

I realized that I'm not in control of my life and trying to control it isn't working. I had to let it all go. I found contentment in that. I don't know what's going to happen but God is good all the time. All the time, God is good. (great movie reference btw!)

He has it all figured out so I just need to go will the flow. (for me that's almost impossible) However, for once I feel good. I realized that my life is good and God is in control. Wow... for the first time in my life I don't feel controlling. I feel like I can do life and be okay.

It is freeing to know that God is doing great things and while I might not know what is going on in all parts of my life; I know that God has a plan for me.

God brought me clarity and contentment and he can bring it to you too. All you have to do is ask.

Are you willing to ask?

xoxo,
Em

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