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Be Care What You Pray For

January 25th, 2018

100 of anything can be a lot, right? Well, 100 blog posts is the same thing. This marks number 100 and I have spent a lot of time contemplating what to write about in the past few days. What would be "good" enough for my 100th?

Well, then I realized it doesn't matter cause I can put whatever I want into it because it's my blog. Then I found that as I was walking through life with the Lord I started to pray and I didn't like the answers I was getting to my prayers.

Sometimes we tend to ask questions that we don't truly want answers to. What if we pray things and want a specific things from a prayers so we ask them in a specific way to have God give us what we think we want. Then we get angry when the Lord does answer and the answer we get is not what we want. Now that answer, in my belief, God saying wait young Padawan because I have something better in store.

This then begs the question of how long do we wait and how? It can be hard when we pray for something and see everyone else arounds us getting or finding fulfillment of the things we ask God for but not getting ourselves. In trying to not sound cliche, but there is always a silver lining.

I have really asked God to bring blessings into my life of friendship and He has. I have asked him to guard my heart against pain that isn't seeking him and He has. Instead of focusing on the fact that I didn't get what I wanted out of my prayer I can say that the Lord has a better plan. He is answering my prayers in ways I don't fully understand yet.

As Christians, we talk about the power of prayer and that it can do wonderful things in our lives but I think we often overlook that prayer takes time. Since we live in a right here, right now society we think that the second we pray for something God should give us an answer or sign and if He doesn't then surely He has failed. That assumption is wrong. I have made that assumption A LOT in my life. I probably will again in the future.

However, it does work. I am not going to tell you to ask God to win the lottery or cure cancer. Yes, miracles do exist but I don't believe that is the reason we pray. We pray to ask God to bring us to Him. Show us guidance, direction, love, compassion, and most of all show us Himself. When we ask God to be a God of gifting or extravagance we lose sight of what our relationship with him was made for.

Start small. Just say hi. Treat pray like a friendship. God is our ultimate friend. But do be warned prayer is powerful and sometimes, most of the time, our answers are not God's.

What are you afraid to pray for? What are you trying to pray away? What are you trying to trick God into giving you in your life through your prayers?

xoxo,
Em


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