February 18, 2016
This morning in chapel we heard about how stereotypes add to racism in society today. The more our chaplain talked the more I thought about the different labels we give people everyday.
As much of a laugh as being a basic white girl is, I may dress in scarves, cardigans, and boots but I'm not a dumb blonde. Was Elle Woods my role model growing up? Yes! However, I have learned that while I might be blonde I'm not a dumb one most times and I'm not just a basic white girl either.
I struggle with self-esteem issues, so don't think that I am saying that I am by any means smarter than you, i.e. the person reading this. I am saying that as a Chemistry major I like science and to learn. I may not always use my brain but it's there. And since today is the day that our school newspaper is writing about me and one of my best friends' struggles I will lay it out here.
I have struggled with my self-esteem my whole life and what size I am. In my eyes, I am defined by the number on my jeans or dresses. I'm not a five and never will be... Do I wish I could be? Kind of. I have always seen that the smaller I was the prettier I was. I am learning that's not true. However, I can't hardly take a compliment because I don't think I deserve it. It's like this vicious cycle that never stops.
I don't like how I look so I try harder to look nicer and be prettier. I get a compliment but can't take it so I don't try so hard but then I don't like how I look. Will it ever stop? I don't know. I just have to lean on the fact that I am made in the image of God. He doesn't make mistakes. cliche, I know but true.
Who am I? I am a white girl, yes. However, I am a nerdy, smart, outgoing white girl. I love people and to talk. In fact, sometimes I don't know how to shut up. It's a problem. But, I love me. The girl who reads her Organic Chemistry book for fun, has a Star Wars keyboard cover, and can quote Mean Girls almost word for word.
I am not defined by my adjectives or cookie cutter stereotype. Are you?
xoxo,
Em
This morning in chapel we heard about how stereotypes add to racism in society today. The more our chaplain talked the more I thought about the different labels we give people everyday.
As much of a laugh as being a basic white girl is, I may dress in scarves, cardigans, and boots but I'm not a dumb blonde. Was Elle Woods my role model growing up? Yes! However, I have learned that while I might be blonde I'm not a dumb one most times and I'm not just a basic white girl either.
I struggle with self-esteem issues, so don't think that I am saying that I am by any means smarter than you, i.e. the person reading this. I am saying that as a Chemistry major I like science and to learn. I may not always use my brain but it's there. And since today is the day that our school newspaper is writing about me and one of my best friends' struggles I will lay it out here.
I have struggled with my self-esteem my whole life and what size I am. In my eyes, I am defined by the number on my jeans or dresses. I'm not a five and never will be... Do I wish I could be? Kind of. I have always seen that the smaller I was the prettier I was. I am learning that's not true. However, I can't hardly take a compliment because I don't think I deserve it. It's like this vicious cycle that never stops.
I don't like how I look so I try harder to look nicer and be prettier. I get a compliment but can't take it so I don't try so hard but then I don't like how I look. Will it ever stop? I don't know. I just have to lean on the fact that I am made in the image of God. He doesn't make mistakes. cliche, I know but true.
Who am I? I am a white girl, yes. However, I am a nerdy, smart, outgoing white girl. I love people and to talk. In fact, sometimes I don't know how to shut up. It's a problem. But, I love me. The girl who reads her Organic Chemistry book for fun, has a Star Wars keyboard cover, and can quote Mean Girls almost word for word.
I am not defined by my adjectives or cookie cutter stereotype. Are you?
xoxo,
Em
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