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Where is God Leading?

February 23, 2016

Robert Frost said "two roads diverge in a yellow wood" but what if there are like five roads? I have found that God does funny things sometimes. Where there are five or six different roads or doors to pick from and how do you know which one to pick?

For example, I have found that I want to go to pharmacy school but how do I know if it is right? I am following one road that I feel God is calling me to. From there, I just jump into faith of what God is doing in my life. I have learned that I won't fully understand everything that He does. Only that my life is in God's plan and timing. (His timing is perfect, you know?)

Can you believe that? The God who created the whole universe knows you and me. Who we are, what our life is going to be like and everything we do wrong. Guess what? God still loves us and knows us and is in control.

Another diverging road is where do I devote my time outside of class? With marching band, orchestra, trying to start a ministry, and working as a teaching assistant, I run around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get everything done. How do I say no? How do I find where God is calling me? (I'm still figuring that one out)

I don't have answers. Only questions. I am just doing the best I can to do what I think is best for me and my life. (Lord only knows if it's right) Get it, Lord only knows? Okay, only I got it.

Today is a day of hows. How do you know where God is calling you when you don't hear his voice?

xoxo,
Em

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