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Now or Never

June 23,  2017

I hate ultimatums because they usually end is both people end up getting hurt. I have been doing a lot of thinking though about what decisions mean and how each decision dictates our lives.

I guess it's something that I never realized that priorities dictate our decisions and part of that is where we're at in our lives. I always thought that seven almost eight months would be enough to stick by Jagger's side. I thought he would realize that it was enough work through the tough stuff in his life.

No, I didn't give him an ultimatum but I pointed out that I was willing to stick by him because I had for so long. Yet, it still wasn't enough to show him how much I love him. When it hit me that I was not the priority to him that he was to me I had to let him go in a sense.

Relationships can't be one-sided but when it feels like only one person is making it work it won't. I have hit a point in my life that I love unconditionally and don't want to "play second fiddle" again and again.

So I chose to dig deeper into my Bible and into the Lord and wait. Wait for whatever the Lord has planned because now or never the Lord has a plan for me.

xoxo,
Em

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