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Blog Reboot

July 8th, 2018

I know that I haven't written in a very long time. An overdue amount of time. I have had a lot of adult life changes in the past few months and have been reflecting on those life changes. I decided since my life is changing that my blog is going to change with it.

Over the past two years of blogging, I have followed my struggle with depression and overcoming those hurdles. For the first time in my life, I can say that I have truly overcome the fight with depression. I won. God won. I no longer want to focus on this part of my life but instead focus on how things will be changing into adulthood.

In the past two months, I graduated undergraduate (still surreal), I moved in with my Aunt, I finalized financial aid for pharmacy school, I went back to Panama and I started adulthood. I can be honest about two things: first, I am horrible at adulting. Second, I love every minute of how much my life is changing.

Shortly after graduating I went back to Panama and I fell in love with the country all over again. I realized that my heart truly is in servanthood and missions. Where that will lead me over the next four years of school, I don't know. However, the kids, language and culture I absolutely love. Had you told me four years ago that I would have wanted to be a medical missionary I would have laughed. Now, my heart yearns for the opportunity to return.

After coming back from Panama, I moved in with my Aunt full-time which is different. I didn't know that living not at home or with another family member would feel so different. I am still learning how to balance day-to-day life and how that will change when I start school. For now, I spend my days watching endless amounts of Grey's Anatomy.

Come August my Grey's Anatomy will be short lived because of school starting. I am excited for a new chapter in life but 100% do not feel prepared. I know that it will take time to transition into pharmacy school and adulthood but I am working on. For now, I will spend my time basking in summer.

I have had the greatest time with my best friends soaking up too much sun and so many laughs and memories. As I look to the future, it is unknown but the unknown can be the best.

Is it scary? Yes. Am I ready? Probably not. Do I jump feet first? Absolutely.

xoxo,
Em

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