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How Time Flies

February 23, 2018

We officially have 71 days until graduation and the last time that I checked we had 111. What? It has been a lot of bittersweet realizations about how much change is coming in the next six to nine months.

When I was on the phone with my mom the other day and she pointed out that I have to change my address this summer because I am moving in with my aunt. For the past 21 years, I have had the same address and lived in the same house. How can it be that it's changing? I knew that it would become part of my life but yet I'm not prepared for it.

Also, the realization that there are people I see everyday that I won't when I start school in the fall. For a moment, I wondered how will I make it? Yet, I know that I have Snapchat and insta and more ways than I can imagine to communicate with the people in my life that I love so dearly.

I have always been a sentimental person but even more so as I realize that I will be leaving. Another aspect of that has become the doubt of we not being important once I leave. Affirmation helps but I know that it's going to change, however, it's learning that the people who matter are not going to let distance change our dynamics.

Learn to love the small things because they are fleeting and too soon will they be memories that we will wish were real.

Time flies when you're having fun, right? Take a moment because they're good and bad but they will change who you are in ways you don't even understand at the moment.

What moments are fleeing for you?

xoxo,
Em

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