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Feelings Aren't Enough

January 14, 2017

I have heard the phrase "a new year, a new me" too many time this year and it's only been two weeks. However, in the past almost month from the end of December to now I learned a big life lesson about God's plan and love.

On Christmas day, one of my friends decided to acknowledge the idea of having feelings for me and told me about it. Fun fact: he isn't single either. The whole situation was very sticky to begin with and I will be honest that there were bad decisions regarding us.

As we talked and continued to get to know each other, there were many comments made between us that shouldn't have been made between us. You know what I realized about this, he was bent on being "loyal" to his girlfriend but the comments he made were not that. It made me feel like trash and he was also treating his girlfriend like it as well.

What I realized was that him saying he had feelings for me was not enough for me. The value he saw in me matters and the trash in which he treated me is what speaks. His actions spoke volumes about his character even though his words contradicted his actions.

I realized that him saying that he had feelings for me was not enough. Just because someone says they like you does not mean they are enough for you.

If you are reading this please know that you have value and deserve someone who sees that. Don't settle for anything less than someone who makes you a priority and deserves you.

Do you have someone you need to let go of because they don't see your worth?

xoxo,
Em

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