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Best Friends and Broken Hearts

August 10, 2016

So I haven't sat down to write anything in what feels like forever. I wonder if it's because nothing has happened sometimes or if I just don't feel like writing. Honestly, it's more that I haven't had a reason or anything substantial to write about until now.

Do you know what it feels like to fall for your best friend and then see them date someone else? I do. It's hard. It infuriated me. I didn't know I could be so mad at someone I loved so much. I realized that holding everything inside was going to destroy our friendship. Best friendship at that. My question then became; what do I do?

I vented with ice cream to a friend before realizing that I had to just be honest with Fluffy. Good, bad and everything in between. Honestly, I was a little scared because I let it all go and just let out how I felt. What's crazy to me is that he understood. He realized how much he had hurt me. Without even noticing that he'd done it and he apologized.

Want to know something even crazier? He's still my best friend. I love him so much and I always will. But now, we understand each other so much better and that communication is key. (Shocker!) Sometimes it can be hard to be angry at the people you love but if you're angry it shows you care, right? (A little too much in my case).

To answer the age old question, can a guy and girl be just friends? Yes. In fact, they can be best friends. It's not without it's bumps and wrong turns along the way. Honestly, I wouldn't want anyone else as a best friend besides my Honduran Fluffy. He's the big brother I never had and I wouldn't trade him for the world. Heart breaks and all.

Do you have a best friend worth the heart breaks?

xoxo,
Em

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