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The Feels

April 5, 2016

I hate the feels. They make life so much more complicated then it needs to be. Especially, when it's your best guy friend. Sometimes I truly question whether guys and girls can be just friends.

Better question. Why did I tell him? Because I feel like being honest is the best approach. Was I wrong?

Is it better to not say anything and still have feels or say something and possibly hurt the friendship? Both decisions suck. (ugh!)

Now that he knows I feel better because I can be honest with myself and move on. (That's super hard though). I know that for the sake of our "bestie" relationship, I have to learn to love him like a brother. But how? (heck if I know!)

I want to be sorry for saying anything but I also know that it was the best decision. (I think?) Why do feels have to make things so awko taco?

Stupid feels. Sometimes I wish I didn't have them.

Do you have the feels?

xoxo,
Em

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