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Find Your Voice

August 12th,  2017

After being home for the past two- almost three months, I have done a lot of reflection and learning about myself. I have come to some serious realizations about myself and the future I want someday.

First, is that my relationship with God has to come first and having a support system to grow in with the Lord is crucial. I have seen that I need people to talk to, count on and trust with my walk with God because going it alone is impossible. Having a friend to talk to about the good and bad of what God is doing in your life is so important.

Second, what I want for my future maybe different than my mother and that's okay. I have to be able to make my own decisions about what I want for my future. So, I take it a day at a time but I stand my ground. With what I want and where that will lead me.

Third, I come first. That may sound really selfish but it's so important. How you're treated and the people in your life should make your a priority. Relationships aren't one-sided and if they are then they fail. I have seen that in my parents' marriage over the past 21 years that I've been alive. Which, shoutout to them that today is their 28th anniversary! They have been through a lot over those 28 years and the fact that they're still together is a miracle somedays but they've taught me something important. You don't give up on the people love and everything in a relationship is a two-way street. I think that's something I have taken for granted which has lead me to be short-sighted in my decisions.

It can be hard to find who you are, what you want, and more importantly how to stand up for it but when you find yourself and your voice don't let it go. Fight for what you want with everything you have because life is precious. There are no do-overs or second chances, usually, so don't put it off. Whatever it is.

Have you found your voice or do you need to find it?

xoxo,
Em

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