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Crying Days

July 7, 2016

So I haven't written in I don't even know how long. too long. So my summer has been a whirlwind and now I am only a few weeks from going back to school. (I think)

I've never had to worry about paying for it till now but now I am. It made me realize how much I take my education for granted. I always thought it would be so easy to get my education and it isn't. I don't know how I overlooked or overthought that but I did. Now I face the scary idea of losing my education.

While, my parents says it will be okay but I don't know that and it worries me. I hope that I get it all figured out but for now I am just holding it all in. So I'm bottling again. I just keep having faith that God has a plan and only he knows it.

It's really just one of those days where I want to cry for no reason and that seems pointless to me. I also realize that if I don't get it out then it's going to make it worse.

Do you just need to cry today?

xoxo,
Em

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