How a White Girl Does Life

January 30, 2017 Have you ever had a friend who you wanted to give advice but they never asked for it? Or a friend that was struggling but didn't know how to approach them? I have found myself in that predicament lately. I see one of my friends drowning in their struggles without admitting it or showing it because "they roll with life." It makes me feel helpless as a friend because I want to help him so much but how can I help if he doesn't want it? It's a thought, isn't it? How do you help someone who doesn't want it? Normally, one would say you don't. I would say that you pray for them which I am. Sometimes when prayer doesn't feel like enough you keep praying. I'll be honest that I don't feel like God is answering the prayer to intercede in his life but I also know that everything happens in God's timing. The real answer, as a mere failing human I can't help someone who doesn't seek help but God can. When I cannot lea...

January 27th, 2017 I feel that there are many times in our lives when we have to make a decision about whether we will do the right thing or the easy thing. Most times the right thing to do in a situation is not the easy thing because it means admitting we are wrong and that is hard. Something I have learned with my bad life choices sometimes is that the best thing to do is own it. While it might make it harder to be full blown wrong; owning that I am completely wrong just makes being totally honest about the situation easier. Having that conversation with one of my guy friends about telling the truth with our crossing boundaries of conversations was realizing that we needed to be honest about it. I am not okay with ignoring my bad decisions because I would rather do the right thing. Yes, I am asking him to jeopardize his relationship to be honest but honest isn't easy. Right isn't easy. God did not call us into a life of ease and sometimes that means having the difficu...

January 25, 2017 Do you ever catch yourself not trusting God's timing or planning? Or better yet, thinking that your plans are better than His because He won't provide for you? I have been doing a lot of that lately in my life and I realized that when I am being the least untrusting in my walk is when God shows up the most. For the past eight years of my life has been surrounded by marching band and for the first time I have decided that my senior year of college I won't be doing marching band. This decision hasn't been easy for me because band has been a cornerstone in my life but I realized that my heart is other places. Tonight I am going to a meeting about applying to be a resident assistant to see where this path is my life leads. However, making the decision to go down this road with God was really hard because I was difficult because I didn't think I could just leave band behind. When I was in the midst of saying God if there isn't clarity on my hea...

January 14, 2017 I have heard the phrase "a new year, a new me" too many time this year and it's only been two weeks. However, in the past almost month from the end of December to now I learned a big life lesson about God's plan and love. On Christmas day, one of my friends decided to acknowledge the idea of having feelings for me and told me about it. Fun fact: he isn't single either. The whole situation was very sticky to begin with and I will be honest that there were bad decisions regarding us. As we talked and continued to get to know each other, there were many comments made between us that shouldn't have been made between us. You know what I realized about this, he was bent on being "loyal" to his girlfriend but the comments he made were not that. It made me feel like trash and he was also treating his girlfriend like it as well. What I realized was that him saying he had feelings for me was not enough for me. The value he saw in me ma...