How a White Girl Does Life

May 18, 2016 I always used to think that tattoos were taboo growing up but as I got older I wanted them. Then, as I went through some hardship with my depression and self-harm I had scriptures that stuck with me that I wanted as tattoos. With a lot of convincing my dad was okay with it. (sorta) However, after I got my second one he asked me, "how many more are you going to get?" Honestly, the question had never really crossed my mind. I had only assumed it would be the two that I have. When I fell apart this past semester, I has to rebuild and in that I realized that I wanted another tattoo. As I was working with my counselor to find myself again, something dawned on me. Something that I had struggled with almost all of my life. I am made the way I am for a reason. I am made in the image of a God who hand-crafted the whole universe and that includes me. My God is perfect and doesn't make mistakes. Therefore, I am made perfectly in his image. No I'm not perfect b...

May 13, 2016 Since I have been home for the past week it has been a roller coaster of emotions. Sometimes in these roller coasters it's hard to trust that God is in control. The past few weeks my church at school was talking about "life without a script" but what does that mean? For me, it's having faith that as my story is playing out; God is in control and is the one dictating my script. (Not going to lie, it's really hard) Between a crazy family situation that is totally out of control, it makes my heart hurt. With other stress from work things with my family I'm struggling to have faith. It makes me question why do good things happen to bad people? I have to remember that Satan is running our material world. Now more than ever I have to lean into God's plan because this world is only temporary. My mom is the one who has been reminding me about that. She tells me "have faith, remember?" While I am normally the strong in God; now my mom...

May 4, 2016 Today I finished my second year of college classes and I don't understand how time has flown so fast. Just yesterday it seemed like I was a doe-eyed freshman that didn't know anything about studying or college. Now, I realized that in August I will be a junior and heck if I know what I'm doing with my life. I also see how much is the past nine months I have become a completely different person. Everyone changes in college and I was always told that when I graduated college I would be a completely different person. Well low and behold, my mom was right. (once again!) My RA from last year asked me, "what have I learned this year?" Answer: a lot of things. About myself and the people around me. I've seen what it means to fall into a pit and not know how a way out and then what it means to find a way out. The people that are there through the pit and love you through it are the people who genuinely love you. While this year I don't have the b...